{"id":12,"date":"2025-09-16T12:22:52","date_gmt":"2025-09-16T12:22:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/onlychristy.com\/?p=12"},"modified":"2025-09-20T03:14:37","modified_gmt":"2025-09-20T10:14:37","slug":"punchlines-prayer-my-raunchy-road-to-healing","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/onlychristy.com\/?p=12","title":{"rendered":"Punchlines & Prayer: My Raunchy Road to Healing"},"content":{"rendered":"
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When Stephen, my husband, brought up that I should write a blog, for some reason something jumped inside of me out of excitement \u2014 like a Baptist at a Beyonc\u00e9 concert. I am a horrible storyteller, I am not descriptive, and it takes more time (which I already have a lot on my plate), but then today I had an epiphany of why I was so excited to do it. I was scared to write because let\u2019s be honest \u2014 half the time my sentences sound like a drunk GPS recalculating. But when I was younger, I used to journal all the time, and that was the number one way I relieved all my heartaches, pain, sadness, struggles, anxieties, joys, laughters, shame, guilt, anger, depression, hope \u2014 and the very thing that allowed me to keep my secrets safe. Therefore I decided I am going to use this blog as my journal to share my secrets, my journey from the good, the bad, the pain, and the joys.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s kind of like having sex: sometimes it\u2019s good, bad, ugly, fun, and orgasmic. That is kind of how my life is. One day I\u2019m Hallelujah, the next day I\u2019m Hot Mess Express. And honey, at least it\u2019s never boring.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

As I am rediscovering my new season of my life and who I am, many things are coming out \u2014 like skeletons in the closet that brought their own ring lights. They say comedy is used for therapy and let me tell you, a lot of my trauma and emotions are being dealt with and coming out in my journey as a comedian. As I slowly try to remember my past pains as my comedy coach tells me to create my jokes from my trauma, I am starting to remember some of my repressed memories.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have always had a very hard time imagining in my head. I couldn\u2019t understand for the longest time why my imagination was so difficult for me to grasp because I enjoy the art of performance and entertaining \u2014 which all need to be rooted from the mind to become an amazing performer. I had a vivid memory come back where I was a child imagining me playing with Barbie\u2019s and having them have conversations, and flying airplanes in the sky and being told to stop imagining. That forced me to learn to live in reality and prevented me from dreaming which caused me to stop believing and having faith in myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Without vision people perish, and to have vision you need to start with your mind to create the reality. Growing up and even to this day, I still struggle with believing in myself. I guess I can say when I start to succeed I tend to self-sabotage myself from living the full potential I could. When I started doing well as a swimmer in high school, I noticed I was improving and becoming good then I slouched down so I wouldn\u2019t be that good and lost my motivation to swim. Anytime I saw progress I felt I needed to digress. I even hate being praised for something because I feel I don\u2019t deserve it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

As an adult I am working on it and have slowly been improving in that mindset, but still battle with myself through it, especially as I am learning to succeed in a new avenue as an entertainer in Hollywood. And let me tell you, Hollywood will eat you alive and ask for dessert \u2014 so you either show up with your own punchlines or they\u2019ll write one for you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

As I am confronting my past traumas my mentor told me my persona of Christy is actually who I really am. I had always thought she was just a character that I had created. Christy is so fun, outgoing, unapologetic, vocal, very direct, hilarious, confident and filled with life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The person who I am, Angela, is seen as this quiet, introvert, kind, but always to herself. My mentor explained to me that the person Christy is my subconscious person that I have been suppressing but is truly who I am, the person I desire to be. It was through my pain and trauma that caused me to digress into a person that feels so small but Christy \u2014 who is vibrant and shines so big \u2014 is who I really am and need to stop hiding.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I was told that healing comes through many ways and one way to confront my healing is to joke about it. So I was challenged that every time I open my mouth to tell a joke. It\u2019s like spiritual CrossFit but for your soul \u2014 except instead of squats, it\u2019s punchlines.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I stood there with all that information thinking can I really do this? But the reality is I can do anything I put my mind to. So I made the decision I will do it and I know it will be so uncomfortable \u2014 but so is wearing stilettos at a church picnic. So if you are talking to me and I am not Throwing punchlines at you, call me out! Make me tell you a joke!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And yes, I actually told myself: if I can handle the wildest, most over-the-top things from my past, I can handle this. This is the day of confronting my traumas, the day where I start to receive healing from my past, and the day I learn to become who I really am \u2014 the person that I want to be, confident, classy, kind, loving, funny, joyous, and inspirational.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Join me as I walk my story out. It\u2019s not going to be easy, but I hope this will also give you a little encouragement yourself that if you are going through something you are not alone. Let\u2019s walk life together, encouraging each other one day at a time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Don\u2019t forget Jesus loves you! And so do I! Bye!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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